These people.

There’s this guy and I like him a lot but my friend is in love with him. Of course right? I literally can’t deal with myself anymore. Everyone is being so rude to me. I haven’t been Erika ever since December. In December everything was so perfect. I’m not going to say one thing about Brandon because he is gone out of my life and Lexi can have him. I don’t care. Looking at him I don’t even know why I ever liked him. He treats girls like trash. Hey Brandon fuck you!

Dear You,

You probably don’t miss me or even think about me anymore but I do. You were a part of me for almost a year and for that to just go away all of a sudden hurts like hell. You’ve moved on and I just got left behind. You blamed me for everything I did. But what about what you did? Did you ever think how that made me feel? When I said I was done I didn’t think it would mean anything because it usually never does but you took it as I was serious. I’m going to miss everything about you. I’m gonna miss that big cheesy smile you always had, I’m going to miss how we always acted like we were married. I’m going to miss those long texts we would send each other. I’m gonna miss cuddling with you. I’ll always remember that smell you have and it will be my favorite smell in the world. No matter what happens you will always be my first love and I will always take you back whenever you need me. When I was hanging out with Mark and Keanni and I saw how cute they were it reminded me of us. I would take back everything I have ever done or said to you just for you to still love me. Every time I see a couple, or I watch a romantic movie, or I listen to a sad song you come to my mind. I can’t not be with you because you won’t let me be happy. I never meant to hurt you, but I did. Bottom line we had way more good times then bad times and I could never replace you.  

Okay. I miss you. Are you happy? Reality finally hit me. I LOVE YOU.